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October 27, 2001: Yesterday night was pretty interesting. Went to Justin/Mark/Dave/Eric/Tom/Kent's House party yesterday night. I didn't stay for long but I did walk home with some people and chill. It was kinda nice. Walked home and we stopped by one of their apartments and we just talked for a while. Heh, it was really interesting how the people that left at the same time kinda felt the same way about parties in general. We all kinda had a hard time in large groups and that it was just too much to deal with. We much rather prefer smaller groups and meeting people in small clumps, rather than huge parties. But either way, I hear the party was eventful to say the least. So after all of that hanging out, I come back and guess what: We played starcraft. Nice eh? Friday night and I play starcraft. Tells you a lot doesn't it? Well, anyways, I've been having a lot of touble thinking up rant topics, but one popped up today. Girls have big mouths. So the deal is, a piece of information got passed through like.. 4 or 5 people before getting back to the originator of the information... within ONE EVENING. Now, I dunno about you, but I've seen COMPUTER NETWORKS that don't operate that quickly. Shoot, theses girls must have their cell phones ready with an auto-dial set whenever they hear a bit of gossip. Shoot. When someone says, "don't tell anyone," I swear they hear it as, "don't tell anyone except all of your best friends and anyone who asks you more than once." Like, I know I have a big mouth, but if someone makes a request, I'll at least ATTEMPT to hold out. Girls? They don't even see it as an issue. Not as far as I can tell. I mean, c'mon... 6 people? 6 girls, conveying information in one evening. The other obvious problem with these loose tongues is the lack of tactfulness. Granted, I'm not the mose tactful person I know, but shoot, I know if something will make someone feel angry/bad/sad/bitter. But it never fails, the desire to spread interesting gossip far outweighs a girl's moral decision to consider her friend's feelings. For those of you that think I'm biased, well.. I AM biased. If a guy says something stupid, its because he's being stupid. Girls don't have that excuse. They're devious to begin with. Heck, through their own self label, girls are more OBSERVANT. This defines deviousness. They see more and act on more knowledge to do more specific things. Therefore, when a girl says something offensive, its not because they don't know better. Rather, they DO know better, but choose to be evil anyways. Which, of course, brings us back to the main theme of these rants. Women = evil; For those CS majors out there, you'll notice this is an ASSIGNMENT rather than an equality test (women == evil). Thus, I conclude once again that yes, guys are stupid, but I affirm just as loudly, that women are evil. October 24, 2001: Today I'm doing rant by request - Topic: The problems of dating or courting a friend. Chances are, if you're a standard shy EECS major, you've probably become friends with a good number of people at Berkeley. By your fourth(sp?) year, I'm sure that you've accumulated a number of acquaintances, but today's topic focuses on friends. This -- right now -- is college! We're here to learn new things and MEET people. And we've made friends. Some have become really really good friends, but what happens when *gasp* you want to be more than just friends? Well, lets explore the dilemma. So the first thing that comes to my mind is this: Its gonna be very awkward to try and court your friend. Why? Cuz she's been your friend for at least a couple years! They just don't think of you that way! If you broach the subject or even hint at it, you risk losing the friendship that your cherished so much! The reason this is problematic is this: You became good friends and you value your friendship. You liked her as a friend before you became interested in her as a significant other and hinting at dating threatens to ruin the friendship that you've created. So thats just a risk. A terrible terrible risk if you ask me. The other thing that I think is important is how your friends will deal with it. Sometimes, I'm sure it works out great, but otherwise, you're friends feel unwelcome when the two of you are together. Afterall, you two are dating! You're in love! You wanna spend some quality time together right? Its just not the same. You can't hang out with all your old friends in the same way because it changes the social dynamics of the group as a whole. Third, and this is a very pessimistic thought, is that what if you break up? More importantly, what if the break up is "ugly?" You will not only have lost a significant other, but you've also lost a friend. I'm not sure, but sometimes, I dunno if its worth the risk. You're risking a good friend for something that might or might not be. Yeah, I've heard that its always worth the risk, because if it works out, its really really great. As someone who has never had a significant other, I really can't identify with that, so all I can see is the potential loss of a friend. This isn't to say that there aren't reasons to date a friend. First, the one thing you know is if you want a girlfriend, you figure she can at minimum be your friend right? I mean, if you want a relationship closer than anything you've had before with one special person, he or she must at LEAST be able to be a good friend. By dating someone you already trust as a friend, you can walk into that relationship with the assurance that your significant other is dependable. You know you can get a long. You know some of the more interesting sides of their personalities already. Granted, some of the mystery of finding out who they are is lost, but it prevents things like a two week dating fling where you hooked up because "she's so cute" or "he's so fine" where there's no real substance to the relationship. But to be honest, I think the main thing is, if you want to get into a relationship with someone and they're not really your friend yet, you're probably jumping the gun. At minimum, shouldn't you find if you can be friends first? I mean, whats the point of trying to make something out of nothing? Friends first. Girlfriend later. I can't see it really any other way. Jumping the gun and trying to skip over the "friend" stage skips some of the short term problems mentioned above, but I think it leaves a lot unanswered as to the foundation of the relationship. October 22, 2001: WARNING: THIS RANT IS FOR MEN ONLY. THAT MEANS YOU. Okay, so thats done with. So most everyone knows that guys are very.... "concerned" ... about the size of their "pubic proturbance." Well, turns out women have even bigger problems will small chest sizes. So it turns out that besides being a social embrassment, women also have the problem of not being able to fit into certain clothes! Example: a standard dress with two thing spaghetti straps. Alright, so I thought it was pretty simple right? Like, the straps keep the dress on right! Well, actually, it turns out that without a decent sized chest, the dress hangs too low! I totally didn't realize. Its very interesting. Turns out that those dresses that criss-cross in the front are really hard to wear unless you were blessed in certain ways. So anyways, I thought that the male readers out there would like to know. Geez, I always thought the male side of the "size wars" would be a bigger deal but I guess not. Heh. I have no idea how this is gonna benefit any of you or how you can apply this to your life. Maybe you can encourage your female friends were are a bit less .. ermm... pronounced? Man, I can feel the flames coming. But like I said, if you're a girl reading this, I warned you! October 21, 2001: You know, it seems my page is getting some attention. I had a girl ICQ me this week after reading my page! Pretty crazy huh? Yeah, so its kinda interesting, they think I'm a funny funny guy. Kinda encouraging to know that my thoughts are being proliferated. Well, on with the ranting. So I watched "A Knights Tale" yesterday night (or this morning, however you wanna categorize it) up at Ben Poon's. So basically, to summarize, its about a prideful squire who wants to be a knight and he competes in jousting competitions with two motives: 1) To win the championship and to be the best, and 2) to win the heart of a beautiful lady. So, I'm all cool with trying to be the champion cuz you know.. thats a very normal guy thing to do. But here's the jacked up part: *SPOILER ALERT* *SPOILER ALERT* *DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU DON'T PLAN TO WATCH THE MOVIE* So basically, the girl wants PROOF that he loves her. And get this, she chooses the EXACT thing that the hero does NOT want to do: LOSE. Isn't that jacked? She basically says to herself, "What is the ONE THING that he wants more than anything? To WIN! So I'll KNOW he loves me if he loses for me!" How jacked is that? I mean really, girls, isn't that evil sounding at all? You're basically trying to make him miserable for you. And I've heard the counter argument for this. Something along the lines of "a girl needs proof and there's just no other way." Well, its quite possible you're right. But I put it to you: Wouldn't the devious man who didn't love you do it if he wanted you for something other than love? How does making a man to miserable things prove anything at all? He might do it for your money or any number of things. Anyways, I was rather irked with the girl. Cute though she may have been. Oh, some people say I only rant about girls and hockey. So, I guess I should try to fix that eh? I'm currently trying to learn the destiny's child song on guitar. Its called Emotion. I think it starts with a C, then moves to a Cadd6/G to get some twang into it for the intro. Yeah, I've been using my free time to brush up my guitar skills. Oh, just last week, Dave Shih, Jane Lo, and I decided to jam for a bit. None of us are very good but its still fun. Alright, so that was my non-girl/hockey section. Back to the real meat of my rants. So I've got these friends of mine (really good friends they are) and they ask me, "Why don't you have a girlfriend? You sing and you play the guitar! That should win the heart of some girl!" So I'm thinking to myself, YEAH! That should work right! And then I say to myself... "wait.. wait. wait.. I can't just go around campus with a guitar and singing trying to meet poeple." See, the problem with just having a talent and expecting a girl is that 1) the girls around you don't know that you have this talent, and 2) everyone at berkeley sings and plays an instrument. Sad isn't it? I'm very normal. I guess the key for me is how to MEET people, rather than getting one to like me. I'd rather just be able to meet people and make new friends. But thats tough to do. I don't really go to any activities and stuff. I know a lot of those Engineering majors reading this can understand. You don't really meet that many people in engineering classes. Its usually the same coupla guys you work with all the time. On top of that, the girl ratio is just small. Bah, so basically I've narrowed down my problem to lack of exposure. So that means I need to get out more. I need suggestions guys. Really, I mean, I have no life. I watch anime, play starcraft, and rant on this webpage all day. In fact, this one is getting pretty long. Well, I guess there's a bright side to this somewhere. Maybe someone's trying to tell me something. Like "Girls are not that important. You've been doing well without a girl in your life." Yeah, so I think they're telling me that, but I'm just not buying it. I think I was meant for monogomy. NOT zero-nogomy. So anyways, I'm just chilling here tonight on a sunday. Wasting away the better years of my life infront of a computer when I could be a really good guy, spending time with a special someone. I guess some things just take time eh? October 18, 2001: Hrmm... So its currently the 8th week into the semester. So the girl situtation? I have none. No situation to report. See.. what needs to happen is I hafta be a struggling high school student taking the entrance exams and I hafta be taking it for the... say.... 4th or 5th time. My parents need to kick me out of the house, so I hafta live at an Inn where I'm the manager living with, oh, five.. maybe SIX beautiful elligible women who ALL have the hots for me. (AKA Love Hina) Once again, anime has distorted my view of reality. So I know it wont happen... I can dream right? Seriously, these anime's are just a BAD influence on me. It makes me think that every girl in existence should be gorgeous, cute, thin, but with big boobs. Not only that, its telling me there's this perfect girl waiting for me in some obscure part of the world and all I gotta do is wait and I'll get her. Now, this might come as a surprise, but it turns out most normal people don't think this way! Shocking isn't??? Turns out it takes EFFORT to get a girl. Who'd a thunk you know? Darn anime. AGAIN I SAY, DARN ANIME!!! But if there is ONE good thing about anime: Err... I'll tell you some other time... I can't really think of one now. Its just good. Hehe... You know, my good friend Srivathsa actually made a request to write more. So here I am, filling in an entry for the 18th of October. Oh! I just remembered! So I'm talking to one of my friends in the building. We'll call him Bill. So Bill here is talking to this girl and you know... she's cute and stuff, does the flirty thingy and stuff. So Bill here is thinking, man... this girl DIGS me. She's INTO me! So they keep talking and the girl actually INVITES him to go clubbing with her! This girl that he just met! NUTS ISN'T IT?! So I'm thinking to myself, "damnit, why doesn't this stuff happen to me???" But then I hear the rest of the story. Turns out Bill's cute friend here was being a bad bad person. Lemme explain. So Bill makes a guess. Cute girl at Berkeley. Therefore, she must have a boyfriend. So Bill says, "Why don't you take your boyfriend?" And she basically replies with something like, "Cuz he's in BLANK." THATS JACKED! SO JACKED! So here's how I see it. 1) This cute girl is leading on my friend Bill, pretending she's interested even tho she's TAKEN! She's taunting him man! This is what we call "evil." Turns out most girls are familiar with this behavior. They go to this school starting at the age of 3 to learn the evil devilish ways of women. But there's more! 2) So say you're the cute girl's bf! Its just as jacked that your gf is asking these random other guys out to go clubbing! Either way, that sucks. Girls suck. So now we've established that girls SUCK. DAMNIT, why am I attracted to them? I tell you, its not fair. Cuz I mean, somewhere out there, I KNOW there HASTA be that one geniune nice girl who just wants a nice guy. So I keep on looking you know? What else can I do? Before I finish off today's installment, I'd like to go over a little term my friend and I use. So, you know when you're talking to some cute girl and you're talking and chatting and she's laughing and then she says, "Yeah! So last week my boyfriend and I... ." See... I hate that. So I'd like to introduce you all to the term "my boyfriend." My boyfriend is this pimp. He seriously has a hold on every single girl I've ever been interested in. Seriously, so my boyfriend always pops in conversations and he's always so perfect and cute. So I'm thinking, my boyfriend better learn to freaking share. I've ranted in person with Sri about this ALL THE TIME. My boyfriend, what a bastard. Oh... for the girls out there, don't worry, my girlfriend is a term I'm sure, but I've NEVER had a chance to use it. If you are a girl and would like to help me fix that problem ( the problem of never using the term "my girlfriend" ), I'm sure you know my IM SN is ChrisKC01. For some reason though, I have this feeling that the only people that read this are guys like me. Which is cool too... but if you ARE a girl, then you know what to do! October 13, 2001: Went to the driving range today and leanred a lot. Mainly about how I couldn't drive a gold ball even if my life depended on it. I started off just practicing with a wedge of some sort. I could get a pretty fluid swing.. moderate accuracy... but absolutely no distance. Then i tried a wood. Oh man... I was shanking that thing way off of the course... Eric Huang (who drove me, Jason, and Alisha there) was in the stall next to me and I almost nailed him with a gold ball. I'm so ashamed. Oh man.. but its so fun. Great reliever of stress... just cranking at these balls. October 11, 2001: Its currently 9 AM. If you know me well enough to be reading this, then you KNOW that I NEVER wake up this early. I'm up because I just finished an all nighter. I have about 1.5 hrs left of sleep before I hafta get up for work. Pity me I say. It hurts. So people... if there's a lesson to be learned... its this: Who says you need to leave soda hall? October 8, 2001: Today has been very discouraging. I recently found out i got a 50/100 on my lexcial analyzer in cs164. Not only that, I accomplished very little in the current 164 project and things aren't looking for me. I may not finish and end up jacking up this course even more than I have. On top of that, I'm screwing over not only my 164 partner but also my 186 partner cuz I hafta divide my time between the 2 classe (cuz the projects are due back to back). AND to top it all off, I have a stat midterm on thursday. So things pretty much suck. I got really stressed for a while, and while I normally have my own ways of dealing with stress, this time was bad... I'm really contemplating dropping one of the courses. Anyways... I just thought I'd complain to you a little. I feel like such a downer so I'd rather say something positive now. So anyways, the bright side of all this stuff is I kinda had to step back and look at my situation. Who really cares if I jack up my grades here? Its not a big deal.. just a pride issue. And geez.. I know I'm way too prideful always, so maybe this is all very good for me. I can't really figure out what there is in store for me in the next couple months. October 7, 2001: I just played THE most UNFULFILLING game of StarCraft I have EVER played. Basically its like this: Ben, Limpyy and I in a 3 on 3 game. We ALMOST kill the red opponent. THEN... limpy and ben lag out along with someone else on the other team. So now its ME on TWO people. Basically it boils down to me struggling to fight off two people and I get jacked after like.. an hour. You can download the replay here: Watch me get killed October 6, 2001: This evening, I got a random ICQ from a 15 year old girl. The funky thing was, the "name" on her info said "chingching" so I thought it was my friend Ching Hung. 've got as So I added her and started chatting.. but lo and behold it wasn't ching. It was some random girl from Pomona. So get this, she's 15. She's liked the 3rd of 4th 14 or 15 year old to ICQ me since this last summer. I don't get it... I must sound like a pedaphile on my info on ICQ or something. I know I don't have a picture posted, so what could it be? I'm a 15 year old magnet. Its so sad. Wanna know whats EVEN SADDER? Well, if you're reading, I'm guessing you do. So she actually asked if I had a gf. Which I thought was odd coming from a 15 year old, but anyways, I said I've never had one and she says she'll tell me a trick. So basically, it boils down to a 15 year old telling me dating advice. If my life wasn't sad enough, I think this just put the finishing touches on the "sadness" that is my dating life. Oh well, at least I get to play a lot of Starcraft and NHL 2K2. October 3, 2001: Ben Poon, Andy Hwang, Jason Kuo, and I have recently been doing some recordings for fun. I didn't realize it was so hard to get 4 people to blend on a piece that isn't written for all guys. We tried an arrangement of And So It Goes by Billy Joel. Its pretty gross sounding but it was our first attempt. Later, Andy, Ben and I tried a BBMack song: Back Here which turned out a bit better but still had some issues. Oh well. Andy told me to post there so here they are. October 1, 2001: You know, I've never really noticed eye lashes as an attractive feature before but today I got a chance to see that eyelashes are darn pretty. So, here's what happened. I think some of you know that I'm a self paced tutor for CS 3S, 9C, and some of 9G. Well, anyways, a 3s student somes in today and we got over some quizzes. The deal with tutoring with students that are going over quizzes is there's a LOT of dead time in the tutoring session. For example, they'll finish a quiz and I'm supposed to grade it with them, but I'll notice a mistake, so I'll say "You should take a look at number 2 first." And so they'll just stare at the problem and work at it for a few minutes. In the meantime, I've got nothing to do so I just look at their paper, stare at them, and back and forth. Today howerever, the student who came in had these really pretty eyes with these really long eyelashes. It was really cute for some reason. I don't know if I'm just weird, maybe some of you guys feel the same way about these overlooked but important body parts. Eye brows are really cool too but I think most girls pluck for some reason. Its a lot harder with eye lashes, cuz you can't make them grow longer am I right? I've seen those glue on fake eye lashes, and while they look good on stage, I'm sure I'd freak out if I saw one in person. On another note, you know what else is cool? Its when girls wear sunglasses and they walk in doors and they kinda push their sunglasses to the top of their head but in the process kinda pull back their hair. Thats a really cute look, in my opinion. Just another one of the things I notice when I'm bored and staring at people at the self paced center. You learn a lot there beyond the scope of the courses they teach. I can't name anything off the top of my head, but I know I've become MORE diverse from the experience there. Since there's so much down time, our conversations range from politics to arstechnica.com, from slashdot to the cutest girl to walk in today. Er.. the cutest girl thing is mainly me actually. Now, if there are any girls reading this, I know I'm gonna get in trouble, but girls, hear this: I KNOW I check out girls, and I remember the pretty ones. I also KNOW that girls do the same darn thing. I just admit to it. Is that so bad? Ugh.. I can feel the flames coming my way. Rants from July 25, 2001 - September 30, 2001 |
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