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January 30, 2002: UPDATE: Due to the SHEER UGLINESS
of the old board, I'm killing it and replacing it with the new
one. NEW BOARD is coming up. Go here if you wanna see the new one that I'll be using shortly. The old one is still uo. January 29, 2002: I'm sure most of you have seen that new Mandy Moore movie coming out right? Well, it features a song called "cry." Lemme recite the lyrics for you: Chorus: iIn places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry Thing which i strive to prove: Girls are evil. Example of this: Girls want guys to cry. Proof: Notive the above lyrics. Mandy Moore only starts to believe in the guy during "the moement [she] saw you cry." Alright, that pretty much saying the girl wont believe you until you cry right? Somehow, we're just not genuine enough until we totally lose control of our emotions and bawl out and stuff. Basically, when we LOSE self control. Now then. Here is the DEFINITIVE PROOF that this is evil. The desire for lack of self control is bad because: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. -- Galatians 5:22-23. THEREFORE, brothers! I urge you to consider the wickedness of women in their unending struggles to take away from thee the fruit which you have strived for! Let them not take your self-control! Flee from the EVIL WOMEN! Actually... I wouldn't flee.. I'd just kinda do watever the next pretty girl tells me to do. BUT that doesn't mean YOU hafta fall into the same trap! INFACT! if you have pretty girls bothering you! I CAN RELIEVE YOUR BURDEN! You know my IM. SAVE YOURSELF!. January 27, 2002: The Christian A Capella Group called "For Christ's Sake" is holding auditions this sunday (February 3) from 8-10 pm at 2601 Channing Way Apt #102 in Berkeley. For more information, email Ben Poon at mailto:%20bpoon@uclink.berkeley.edu. January 26, 2002: Poll results! Skirt and Tank Top: 12 (36%) Business Suit: 6 (18%) Jeans and a T-Shirt: 5 (15%) Pajamas: 5 (15%) Peacoat Scarf: 2 (6%) Tube Top and Hoochie pants: 2 (6%) Formal Gown: 1 (3%) Shorts and a T-shirt: 0 (0%) Sweats: 0 (0%) January 25, 2002: Wanna know how powerful a pretty girl is? Somehow this pic of a pretty girl was on geocities. Within 5 minutes of finding it, the link had been circulated around so much, that GEOCITIES REFUSED THE CONNECTIONS because it EXCEEDED bandwidth limitations. THATS how powerful a pretty girl is. Heck... its just her freaking DIGITAL PICTURE. Ugh... SO SCARY. January 25, 2002: GRRR THAT WAS UP FOR ALL OF 20 SECONDS! And I hafta take it down cuz the girl has a really hard boyfriend. GREAT. January 23, 2002: Here's an interesting question to ponder: Should girls use all their advantages as girls to get stuff done to benefit themselves? Here's what I mean. Say you're a girl. Lets say you're also in a heavily male oriented setting. You KNOW you're not bad looking and decide to do the whole cutesey-look-at-me-I'm-cute-and-you're-a-guy-and-hafta-be-nice thing. There are some pretty innocent requests I've heard from girls that act super cute, but then again, there are are also those super sly request. Requests that a guy will say yes to before realizing the full consequences of what he's agreed to. Stuff like, "You wanna go to _____ with me?" Yes.... OH CRAP. I didn't want to say that! and then the guy is screwed. Its all because of the cuteness factor of the girl. So while this has something to do with appearance in general, a girl knows how to turn on the cute when she hasta to get something. My question for you is, is it okay? There's really two schools of thought on this that I've heard. (actually, I think i've heard more, but these are the only ones worth mentioning). First is what I call the reverse-double-standard. So girls always feel they're being repressed somehow and not given the same opportunities that men are given. So they go around getting a little peeved at how guys get stuff that they can't really have. So as a result, they feel they're JUSTIFIED in manipulating men. Its basically like thinking, they're cheating me, so I'm gonna cheat them. I kind of think this is rather spiteful. I mean, really, it'd be like thinking a restaurant charges too much and is cheating you, so you only pay how much you think you should and cheat them back. Sure, they're being unfair, but it doesn't make you cheating them okay. The second school of thought is that it is NOT okay to take advantage of the fact that you're a woman in this way. Women have this chronic need to tell guys how AWFUL ... just AWFUL it is to be a girl! If its SO awful, I really feel you don't have a right to be using the advantages of girl-dom. The uber-extreme example of this would be something like Bill Gates complaining heavily about how he has no personal life because of his wealth. You really can't complain about your wealth if you like your money. Its a package deal. Granted, the discriminations on women by men are wrong, but the solution is NOT to cheat men back. Besides, for the most part, its WOMEN that place the restrictions on women. Whens the last time you heard a guy say, "I think you should re-think that outfit. The scarf and belt don't match and the shape of your left pinky doens't accentuate the color of your eyes." Yeah... see? Its really kinda odd how most guys have zero fashion sense and yet girls accuse guys of MAKING them buy their clothes. But anyways, thats a tangent. Suffice it to say, I think its not right for girls to use their femaleness as an advantage. If you want things to be equal, don't try to tip the balance the other way. On another note: Girls by clothing FOR THEMSELVES. Not for guys. They also put on makeup FOR THEMSELVES. Guys would ACTUALLY like to meet girls and actually know what they look like! OH SHOOT! THATS SO REVOLUTIONARY! I mean really, if I meet someone, I want to meet them... NOT the plastic composite powder that happens to be on their face at the time. I think a lot of guys actually like the makeup though. Heck... I know a guy who likes to photoshop pictures of girls to make them look better. go figure. January 23, 2002: Seriously, sometimes you just hafta wonder at the intelligence pool available at Berkeley. I mean, we go to a pretty good institution as far as the world is concerned and so you'd expect a certain amount of competence right? Well, it didn't turn out that way tonight during the cs61a entrance exam. Geez... there were some CRAZY responses to a simple question. Stuff with typedefs, and weird languages. We had some pascal, some python, visual basic, and even perl. It was nuts. For a simple tree navigation problem! Seriously, it was terrible. Anyways, the grading was kinda hectic.. and it took us straight on until midnight. And we only graded a one problem exam! I mean can you imagine a REAL midterm? or say.. A FINAL!? Oh dang.. it'll be SO painful. They literrally said, sometimes they grade till 5 am. THATS JUST NOT RIGHT! I mean... I'm a 10 hour a week TA. I've already put in 10 hours.. AND ITS ONLY WEDNESDAY! Oh well. Its still fun dealing with students. Oh... in related news, I'm no longer teaching the T,Th section from 12:30 - 2. Instead, they moved me to the W,F 9:30 - 11 section. Oh the pain. Oh well... easy come, easy go. January 22, 2002: Well, today was my first day as a TA! It was interesting. I didn't realize my life would be so hectic as a TA. I keep running around the lab helping people with all these questions. Granted, not knowing how emacs works is hard, but still, I wouldn't take it. I had a mad headache afterwards. Anyways... I'm proctoring the cs61a entrance exam tomorrow... I'll let you know how it goes. Oh.. btw, Ben suggested a forum for sobay traffic for people who need rides, so check it out in the forums section. January 22, 2002: Update on the people looking for housing/roomates situation. Agnes: Looking for a female roomate to live in royston for 2 semesters. Contact me or her for more details. I'll only be able to tell you how to contact her. ALSO: Another girl is looking for housing up on north side - SO all you seniors! If you're moving out, you could really help someone buy letting them live there after you! Please contact me if you wanna help a girl out. IM me - ChrisKC01. January 21, 2002: Got this from Anna's journal: Hot or Not Girls My Friend Random Chick January 21, 2002: Oh man.. golf lessons today were AWESOME. We started off learning to putt. That wasn't really a problem. But THEN, we got to try the 5 iron. w00t! We started cranking those balls dude. Oh man... like.. I used to only hit like.. 40 yards or so... but with the 5 iron, I was hitting maybe 70. AND THEN! We tried a 5-wood! OH BABY! ONE HUNDRED THIRTEEN YARDS MAN! WOOHOO!! It was awesome. I bet the people next to us thought we were freaks cuz 113 yards isn't really something special. But anyways... I'm happy! Hehehe.. January 20, 2002: My friend agnes is looking for a roomate for this semester and the next. She's living in royston now on the fourth floor. IM her at meeko8184 if you're interesting. I almost forgot to mention the best reasons to move into Royston! Ben Poon, Brian Chew, and MYSELF live there! Isn't that great? Among some of the other current residents are Grace Lau, Susan Chang, Robin Chang(sp?), David Pang, Ray, and Dave Wong. BTW.. agnes is looking for a FEMALE roomate. January 20, 2002: I forgot to reset the previous poll results, so if you voted on the new poll, vote again cuz i just zeroed it all out. On a completely different note, if you look at my links section, there's only a couple pages there. If you want me to add yours, let me know either through the forums, IM, or email. I'm ckcheng on the forums, and my IM is ChrisKC01. DO NOT TELL THE 61A STUDENTS MY IM! hehehe. January 19, 2002: Poll results:
Not sure what this really means... just that a lot of guys think girls lie a lot? I dunno. January 19, 2002: Dude.. what a wild game today. The game was at NINE in the morning today and man.. was it early... and get this... we got there at around 8:20 to warm up! OH DUDE its so early. Anywayas.. game recap. We start the game and things are going well but suddenly the opposition scores a wrap around goal. So we're down 0 - 1. So we go a couple more shifts and i'm sitting in the slot open and dave (i think) feeds me the puck from the boards and I kinda wack at it and it goes in! W00t! I got a goal. It went in on the lower left. I totally fanned on the shot but I think the goalie didn't see it. So anyways... That goes on for a while and suddently we get a penalty called against us. It was against this guy named Chris for holding the stick. So we go onto the penalty kill. But during the penalty kill, we got a short handed breakaway and rick flips one into the net! SCORE! 2 - 1. Later in the game, I happened to score again making it 3 - 1. So its cool, but in the third period, we gave up 3 goals to make it 4 - 3 and we lost the game. But i scored twice! Dave actually hit the cross bar sometime in the game and the other team also had a goal disallowed. Oh yeah.. and the opposition goalie had a CRAZY save. Literally dove from the opposite side to make a save. Incredible. Comments(0) January 18, 2002: Well, looks like i got the TA position! Yep. I'll be UGSI-ing a section of CS61A starting this semester. Its section 16 I believe, TThu, 12:30 - 2. Go me! Hahahha. Its gonna be fun. I always wanted to try this. That means no more self-paced center though. Oh well, that was fun too, (except for the crying girl). Anyways.. more on this later. Comments(7) January 17, 2002: Just got back from So-Cal guys. It was pretty fun, but before I get to that, lets talk about the drive home. Well, normally, driving on Hi-5 is pretty boring. Lots of straight driving and not much scenery. Well, not this time. I was getting tired so I pulled over and asked Sri to drive for me. So we start driving along 5 and this jerk in a white Pontiac Grand Am straight up cuts us off! WITHOUT SIGNALLING! Thats pretty irritating. And he does this to like a bunch of people! The stupid thing is.. he's not even driving fast. He's just cutting pepole off at 80mph. So like, we end up in front of him again somehow. So Sri decides to be a bit of a punk to get even with this guy. He finds a big truck and pulls up right beside him so that the pontiac can't get by. Seeing as hi-5 is a 2 lane road in each direction, there's nothing the guy can do about it. So he starts tailing us REALLY closely at 85 mph and you can see him swearing and stuff or mouthing it anyways. So after a while, we pass the truck and he zooms by us. AGAIN.. he tries to cut us off.. but he's stupid and going too slow. So we end up infront of him AGAIN. Sri decides to do the same blocking method and again the pontiac guy gets pissed. We let him pass and as he's passing us, he's mouthing all sorts of obscenities. Then, he pulls up and throws stuff at us from the next lane over. THEN, he pulls INFRONT of us and THROWS MORE STUFF AT US! Now, if he were say.... 10 years old, I might have thought that clever or appropriate, but this guy was clearly in his mid 30's or 40s. So me and Sri are like.. watever. We want to pass this guy. So we merge to the other lane to try and pass.... BUT HE MERGES WITH US! So we merge back.. AND HE FOLLOWS! So he wont let us pass! Hahahaha.... how CHILDISH. We start following him and me and sri think its so funny that this old man is being such a baby. Well, anyways.. So-cal was really fun. Great weather, beautiful girls. *sigh* I went to the wrong school man. Oh right, and the beach... incredible. The beaches down there are pretty. Bah... oh well.. at least berkeley has... er... good computer science facilities... UPDATE: Some pictures from the trip are shown at here. They're not that interesting unless you're in the shots. Comments(1) January 15, 2002: Well guys, I'm in UCLA! Its pretty cool, but the drive... well the drive wasn't so good. I ended up taking 152W instead of 152E. Thats pretty stupid cuz that doens't hit highway 5. Anyways... site updates will be slow this week until I get back. January 13, 2002: Casey has pics and vids from vegas up at this location. January 13, 2002: Some changes have occured. The banner is now redesigned but the forums have been blanked. I had to remove the old one cuz it used sql threads inefficiently. January 13, 2002: One of the touchiest subjects a man can broach with a woman is anything relating to PMS. Saying something like "I hate being around girls who are PMS-ing" can get you slapped around so hard, you'll think the gruesome scenes from the famous "oh 'lamour" stick figures were tame. But really, PMS is pretty significant. I mean, all these girls say it sucks to be a girl and one of the reasons they point out is: PMS. Well, to be fair, I'd say GUYS take more crap as a direct result of PMS than girls do. I mean, think about it this way. Suppose you are a girl and you have PMS. Everything sucks to you. So you KNOW you'll have this bad day. Well, for guys, WE DON'T EVEN KNOW ITS COMING! We'll just be chatting with you and suddenly for no apparent reason, we're suddenly on the wrong end of a spitting war with some girl yelling at how insensitive we are. I'm guesing girls are just irritable and everyone during PMS. Well, thats really not that bad. Because as a guy, I've felt the fury of a PMS-ing girl. And really, its pretty bad. So now that we've settled the fact that PMS is at least as bad for guys as it is for women, lets think of some solutions to the problem. Alright... so as I see it, there's a couple ways to get around all this PMS stuff. Method 1: A lot of girls don't ever wanna have children anyways. I'm thinking there's probably a way to fool your body into early menopause. This is actually pretty cool if you're never gonna have kids! So you'll never have a period, which means you can't have any syndromes related with them! Thats just great for guys. Unfortunately, this solution pretty much screws women over. As I understand, menopause sucks pretty hard. Hot flashes and stuff? I don't really know the details. Suffice it to say, I don't think this answer will be very popular. Method 2: Wear some sort of clothing item that is universally understood as "GET OUT OF MY WAY! I'VE GOT PMS!" My first inclination would be something like a hat. For example, a black baseball cap or something. Evertime we see a girl wearing a black baseball cap, we'll remember to buy her a meal or something. Get her a drink, and just plain be freaking nice to her. After she takes off the cap (in a week or so), we can begin interacting like normal people again. Others have suggested that we use jewerly like braclets, necklaces, or earrings. To be perfectly honest, guys aren't perceptive/observant enough to pick up on such subtle clothing cues. Thats why I suggested hats. Its near your face and its clearly visible. Again, this solution really helps us guys out. The problem is that I doubt any girl with any sense of fashion would let her outfits be dictated by her cycles. I mean, even I can relate to this. Imagine having to wear a black cap every day for a week. This happens once a month. I mean, shoot, you can't wear a cap that often. And like, what if you have a special occasion to attend during this time? You're not gonna wear a baseball cap with your evening gown. I think some guys might consider the lack of fashion as no big deal. Afterall, most girls have a LOT of clothing. So beit if they must buy a PMS-warning clothing item for each possible outift. It wont really affect a girl's wardrobe anyways. Just a couple extra items! I think this is a pretty good solution. 1) The guys are, again, alerted to the fact that some girl has PMS, and 2) girls get to buy more clothing! This is a WIN WIN situation. Guys like to know when a girl is gonna take his head off, and girls like to buy clothing. The only reason I'd say this is bad, is that the more sinister females could use this to their EXTREME advantage. Wearing their PMS-warning clothing whenever they want to get a guy to do something. For example. Girl is too lazy to go to Safeway to buy a can of soup. Girl must simply don her PMS-warning clothing, and walk to the nearest guy. The guy will be in absolute TERROR. Girl with PMS = EVIL^2! So of course, the girl merely mentiones the desire for the soup and BAM, the guy is running like mad for the nearest convenience store. Oh well, there goes another viable solution. Method 3: Most of the touchiness on this subject comes from the fact that a man will never ever experience PMS, so basically, we don't know what we're talking about. To be honest, I'm glad I don't have to deal with it, but what I don't understand is why girl can't just TRY HARDER to be nice. They KNOW they're gonna be irritable today, so why not make the extra effort to be pleasant? Sure sure, girls can say they can't do anything about it, that their body forces them to be irritable. Well, I find that hard to believe. At some point, you hafta be able to make decisions even through PMS. A girls decision to kill a man during this time can hardly be excusable just because she's got PMS. Therefore, you'd think that girls should be held accountable for their actions. And why not? EVeryone else is! And to be honest, gosh darnit, by age 20, you should've had a LOT of practice! So frankly, I don't understand why girls are so pissed about this phenomenon. First, the guys take the brunt of it, and second, I think its fixable. January 12, 2002: Well, I just played in my first league hockey game. We lost of course, but it was really fun. Finals score: 5 - 4. I didn't score or anything. The closest I got was a early 1st period breakaway. I tried to shoot 5-hole but ended up going low and wide on the stick side. That was pretty much my only chance, and I was really tired after my 2nd shift. Dave Shih on the other hand had a GOAL! Cool eh? Yeah... So we had 1 slapper from dave inclose that scored. Another guy on our team named Chris banked one in off the goalie which I saw. That was pretty cool. More on this later. UPDATE: I might have gotten a shot on net. I did redirect something that hit the goalie.. so that counts as a shot. I also might have had an assist from a poke check that ended up on a teamates stick who scored. January 10, 2002: The contradictory nature of women: How many of you have heard a girl say something like, "I wish I were pretty...?" Of those people, how many of you have heard, "I hate it when gross guys hit on me?" To me, this is a contradiction. First off, being pretty is essentially the same as being attractive. What does attractive mean? Well gee... seems to me like it has to do with ATTRACTING people. In fact, I'd say attractiveness when used in a vernacular context means how your appearances help you attract men. And taken to a point, it means to ATTRACT SUTORS. In even more layman's terms, its how well you can get guys to be interested in you. So interested, in fact, that they APPROACH you! So basically, if you're attractive, people will hit on you. THUS, if you wanna be pretty, you had better get used to the hitting on part. I don't see how girls justify wanting to be pretty and wanting only perfect guys to talk to them. If you don't want gross guys talking to you, then don't dress up to clubs. I think its pretty simple. Don't wear tight clothing. I mean, if you're dressing up just to impress females, why go to a club? Doesn't make sense to me.i So the probem I want to address now is a little less severe than being "hit on." Rather, its being "checked out." You know what I'm talking about. Cute girls walk by. Suddenly, all the guys in your group stop talking about the current topic of conversation and their heads kinda turn slowly looking off into the distance. Yep... this is what we call an "oggle." Sometimes refered to as a "drool" or "stare." So how to girls say stuff like, "I wish I were as pretty as so and so" and yet get SO offended and think its SO gross when someone checks them out. I mean.. shoot.. girls so.. "my butt/stomach/thighs/waist/neck/arm/elbow/right kneecap/left earlobe/ring finger on my left hand/toes is(are) too fat." They fix that so that people can SEE the difference right? So why be all pissed when someone NOTICES?? I don't get it. If you didn't want people to look, then why do you do all these things to look better? Most common argument I've heard is "I want to look better for myself." Eh... I do'nt think so. If you were living all alone on a secluded island with THE MAN OF YOUR DREAMS who didn't care about how you looked, I find it hard to imagine you would be starving yourself and working out at the gym for months at a time to impress no one. Infact, to take it a step further, say your man happened to be BLIND! Would you STILL want to shape that thigh? Run that extra mile? I sure as heck wouldn't. So this brings me to a final conclusion that women are contradictory in terms of how they view their own looks. On the one hand, they wanna look model gorgeous, yet on the other hand, they feel violated when someone else notices them. It doesn't really make sense. If you wanna prove me wrong, there's a forum for your opinions. There's also IM if you don't want other people to see: ChrisKC01. UPDATE: I now know that girls also feel miffed when they DON'T get hit on! THIS MAKES NO SENSE! First, its gross when guysh it on you. AND NOW! You feel inferior when no guys hit on you?! Girls are the biggest mystery since the time Ben Tao missed the toilet seat completely. January 10, 2002: The poll results are in! Final count: Bald:3(7%) Shorter than chin:0(0%) Chin to Shoulder:11(26%) Shoulder to Shoulder Blades: 20(48%) ShoulderBlade to Waist:7(17%) Waist to Knees:0(0%) Longer than knees:0(0%) This means, if you want to impress more people with your hair, you should have it longer than your shoulders... but not past your mid-back. I say people and not guys, because I know girls have voted on this. Although demographically, I'd say more guys voted than girls. But why are you impressing girls with your hair? Its not like that really matters. I don't impress guys with my hair. Then again, I don't impress anyone with my hair. January 10, 2002: So someone has called to my attention that the reason I have such a low self-esteem of my ability to attract women is because I'm surrounded by guy hotties who are much better looking than I am. Therefore, I rate myself low in woman attracting ability ranking. The people this someone pointed out were Ben Poon and Garrett Lu. This means either one of two possibilities must occur: 1) I should stop hanging around them to feel better about myself, or 2) I should pick up all the girls they leave crying and give it a try on the rebound. Hahahah... anyways.. I'm just kidding. January 9, 2002: So I'm talking to this girl from my church. She's in 7th grade. Turns out, she JUST dumped her boyfriend. Now.. normally, girls dumping guys is a pretty normal thing, but remember... she's in SEVENTH grade. I'm not sure if I'm just getting old, but you know the generic "back when I was your age" schpeel? Well, here it goes: Back when I was in 7th grade, I don't remember dating. And all this he/she gossip stuff? I remember that. But not dating. They're too young. THEY'RE TOO YOUNG! It doesn't make sense. I mean, especially from a christian perspective. She's a church go-er like me and we're really not encouraged to date casually. Infact, if you date, it should be for the purpose of finding a wife (or husband). Realistically, this means if you go into the relationship and you fully intend to NEVER marry the girl (or guy) then its probably not a good use of your time. You waste your own time and your significant other's time. Even in Jr High when its just "for fun," people get hurt and it bears poor witness to other Christians. I just don't like it when I see this because I really take dating pretty seriously. I take a lot of things more seriously than I should but dating I think I'm fairly justified in my opinion. For the young reading this, you can take it as a rebuke if you want, but really, I'd rather you just think about what I've said instead. I mean, forcing your maturity by dating isn't all that intelligent, and I don't think its really that morally sound. I guess this also comes back to how kids to value their youthfulness. I mean, one day, when you're moaning and groaning over all sorts of relationship problems, and you'll say something like, "I wish it were back in the days when I didn't have these girl(guy) problems!" And then you'll realize. Oh wait.. that was only for 2 years of my life. Enjoy your youthful innocence! You're only young for what... 20 years? (which puts me out of the young category) So try and live it well. The other thing I find really odd is how people hand out hugs like candy. I'm not sure if anyone at all feels this way, but this is how I picture a hug. You're opening up your body and trusting the other person completely with it. See, look at the act of hugging. Its like you're leaving yourself open and embracing another human! For good friends, thats really great, but I really feel uncomfortable when someone I don't really know initiates a hug. I feel really awkward. I'm not really sure what it is, but I think subconciously (and now that I've pointed it out, probably conciously) I don't really trust the other person enough. I'm just sorta stiff and I think the word is cautious. Which isn't to say I don't like hugs all together, but I think they're used just a little to casually for my taste. Anyways, today is wednesday and I just ran some errands and I'm back at home bored again. B0r3D I SAY! When I get bored, I end up thinking too much. I get to thinking about my past and all the regrets I've had in my life. I dunno how many other people do this, but when I have free time, I get pensive. You know.. you think about how you shouldn't have said something sometime or should've done this instead of that. Its really funny, because I can't seem to remember where I'm GLAD I made one decision over another. I only remember the regrets. Regrets about missing out on some opportunity. Regrets about not being a more assertive person. I think the person I am today can be traced largely to my short-comings in the past. The mistakes I've made have had a large part in making me who I am. I don't really feel like sharing my retarded mistakes with you but I'm sure of at least one other person who feels the way I do when they have time, and sometimes, its not a pleasant feeling. January 9, 2002: Five pictures from Jen Lui's digital camera are here. January 7, 2002: Pictures from Casey's cam are up. They're at his site at http://ieng9.ucsd.edu/~cslowe/pix/ or you can find them at my site at here. They're the pix labeled "la something something". January 7, 2002: I think someone's cheating on my poll. They're voting once a day for chin to shoulder. While I don't doubt its a popular length, the consistent once per day makes me think its the same person voting the same way once per day. We wanna keep the poll accurate, so try to only vote once. RANDOM THOUGHT: Do most pretty girls REALIZE they're pretty? Like.. if you're a pretty girl, how do you find out if you're pretty or not? Can girls just tell? I guess I'm curious because how would they find out if they're pretty? If a lot of people ask them out? But the only people who'd ask are pretty people so there are fewer people asking. So how does that work? RANDM THOUGHT #2: On the comments of the poll, you'll notice a very interesting question that goes like this: If your hair is longer than your waist, does it get in the way when you're going to th bathroom? Well girls? What do you think? January 6, 2002: I had almost forgotten! January 1 2002 is the beginning of my OFFICIAL FINAL SEASON!!. THATS RIGH! I have exactly one semesteter left before I graduate. For those of you not familiar with the final season, its a term referring to the last year in which you have an opportunity to find yourself a woman. Its commonly used for engineering majors finishing college because the working environment for engineers after college is not conducive to meeting women. THEREFORE, my final season is NOW. See... what you wanna do in regular sports in ANY season, is to work hard and make the playoffs. Well, I suppose the playoffs in this context is getting more than 1 girl intersted in you and you can see who you want more! So now the key for me here is to just go in and play hard! Gotta find girls! Maybe go to korea, japan, shanghai, or taiwan. Who knows where my future wife will be. After I've accumulated a substantial investment in girls who want me, I can then pick and choose after the school year is over. Heh... if only it were that simple. Reality: Chances are, this semester will be no different than any other. I'll sit at home and play a LOT of starcraft since I'm only takine 8 units (9 if i feel studious) and since I didn't get that TA job, I wont even be busy helping other people. Oh well. I'll probably work at self paced still. Bah... kinda depressing thinking about this. Actually.. no.. not really depressing.. its just the same as always. I don't really like "hitting" on girls. Futhermore, I wouldn't know how to do it... so I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do to get one. Oh well... send me your advice. Post it on the forums. I'm taking notes you know. January 6, 2002: The way men and women view their self worth has come to my attention after a conversation with a friend of mine. Here's how it started. If I didn't talk to a guy friend for five years and then asked him "What's ups?" chances are his response will be structured like this: "Yeah.. So i'm working now... got a job at ______. I'm still singing, got myself a new rig for my computer. Oh right.. I moved to _____. Yeah.. its been pretty good. How about you?" Now lets say instead that I asked a girl "What's up?" A lot of times, you'll get something like this:"Oh.. yeah.. I'm good. I'm dating _____ now.. yeah.. broke up with _____. a while back. Oh? did you not know about him? I was with him after I broke up with ______. How about you?" I'm not saying all girls do this, but a lot of girls evaluate themselves based on who they're dating. Look at the girl's response. Whats she address? The peron she's with now and the persons she WAS with. How does the guy respond? With what he's doing now, and what he did and what he still does. Its really odd because it makes me think that a lot of girls determine their self-worth by who they're dating. Somehow, who they date determines who they are, or atleast int heir minds it does. If you ask me, it seems a bit unhealthy. A girl is a person with her own personality. She submerge her identity for the identity of the 3 or 4 boys she's been with in the last couple years right? I'm not really sure if this is true for all girls but it seems girls just place more of an emphasis on relationship. A guy can think highly of his girlfriend and their relationshpi but thats not really the first thing that comes to mind when you ask him "whats up?"Anyways, this sheds some light on of the perceptions I have of women being evil. For example.. say there's this girl who's dating an evil guy! Well, if the guy is evil and the girl submerges her identity and assumes the personality of the guy, then *POOF*, you've got an evil girl. Who knows... maybe girls are only evil after their first relationship? If so, that would point to guys being evil and infecting girls after their first relationship. January 4, 2002: I changed the forums a bit. There's a new section for rant submissions. You think I've got a lot to say about some particular topic? You can stick stuff up on there and I'll take a look. If it gets a lot of responses, I'll throw down my own rant too. hehehe. Oh.. btw.. SIGN THE GUESTBOOK! January 3, 2002: UPDATE: Video is taken down for bandwidth reasons. I thot a lot more people ready my webpage, but only three people have signed the guestbook, AND one of them is ME! I feel so alone! hahaha... thx to sri and carol for signing. Anyways... www.bjunkyard.com is down, BUT I got a chance to nab this video from the site. This is bronx's rip so I'm not sure if he's okay with me distributing it, but its this really cool video. its a korean video but the story doesn't really take a korean person to understand cuz both me and ben poon understand it. Its basically a love story but with a twist. Take a look, I think you'll like it. BUT FIRST! Sign the guest book! Here's the video. January 2, 2002: Seriously, Asians must be the most irritating people I've ever seen. How many of you have gone to Tin Tin, or Marina, or 99 Ranch and just gotten really pissed off at how stupid/arrogant/irrtating asian people are?? I mean, really, how hard is it to learn some manners? Lemme give you an example. I was at 99 Ranch and I'm about to enter. So I notice there's a bunch people coming out from the market so I hold open the door for them. THEY WALK BY AND DON'T SAY A THING! They don't even make EYE contact. Shoot... its not hard to say "thank you." Freaking asians. I felt like dropping the door on them. Stinking asians need to learn their place. Another instance. Jason Ko and I go to 99 rance to the meat and poultry section. We're AT THE COUNTER, the guy is ABOUT to talk to us and suddently, this old asian lady comes up and yells at us "I WAS HERE FIRST!" and procedes to tell the guy her order. THE GUY BEHIND THE COUNTER was looking kinda confused because CLEARLY, Jason and I were there first. I'm thinking about this because I was at Fantasia a couple nights ago and the flood of asians was just too much for me. Janet Tsui had her own ordeal with asians there too! So what happens is, she wants a cup of water right? So she goes up to the fantasia cashier and asks for one. So here's what happens. The cashier tells someone to get a cup of water. That person passes on the message to someone else. It goes to around 4 or 5 people before they get the cup. BUT WAIT! Thats not it! They only get the CUP! They pass the cup around back through the 4 or 5 people again before FINALLY, one of them takes the cup (looking disgusted the entire time) and walks 2 yards to the water dispenser and finally gives it back to Janet. This took, oh... TEN MINUTES! FOR A CUP OF WATER! Azns suck. I dunno what people were thinking when they called asians the model minority. We're freaking irritating. Driving our Mercedes' and BMW's flaunting our cash. Heck, even our KIDS drive nice cars. Dumb Asians. And ASIAN GIRLS TOO! ARGH. Man.. azn girls have ATTITUDE! oh its so scary. And ASIAN LADIES ARE THE WOSRT TOO! ARGH. Man.. azn ladies have ATTITUDE! oh its so scary. I tell you, I WANT to get yelled at by an old azn woman because i WANT TO ARGUE WITH THEM! They're so arrogant. They begin with the automatic assumption that THEY ARE RIGHT and YOU ARE AN IDIOT! If you guys have never experienced this, I really recommend it. Its very enlightening about the ridiculous thinking process of women. So you can spew out THE MOST ELEGANT argument known to man, but you're still wrong in their eyes. Damn asians. Stubborn, stupid, and arrogant. Anyways... so there's this cute girl in CS at berkeley. (and i hope she never ifnds this page) but yeah.. she's cute, smart, nice, and sociable. AND SHE'S SINGLE. My friend who knows her is reluctant to pursue her. I'm totally baffled. It doesn't really get much better than that! I mean heck, she'll even understand you're NERDY CS JOKES! Sick isn't it? Man... the only problem is she's not quite christian, but if you guys look in the quotes section, you'll know how I feel about that problem. Bah... speaking of girls, I still don't have one. I'm only taking 8 units this coming semester so I'm thinking I can devote more time to "pimping." I'm not really sure how it works but I'm guesing I can ask ben, derek, or jon for pointers. Heheheh.. Anways, I'm in South bay for a while. You wanna do something? Gimme a call. And if you don't know how to ask me for my number, chances are I don't know you. So you calling would be scary anyways. Hehehehe. January 1, 2002: Hey everyone! Its a new year. Time to turn a new leaf. Maybe I'll praise the wonders of girls from now on! Yeah.. right... Rants from December |
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